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Job Interviews...

The worst part about losing or leaving a job is the searching for a new one I think. The sifting through all the possibilities to those that are plausible and that you think you might like or be capable of doing seems endless. Then there's the endless sending out of resumes and then the worst.... The waiting period.

But I got a couple calls today and I have a couple interviews. The place I'm most interested in is NURUN. The man who called me to do a brief phone interview and to discuss the position with me seemed very personable. They seem like an excellent company and they have a killer location for their offices - Old Montreal... I really hope this might work out. (THINK POSITIVE THOUGHTS!)

So tomorrow 9h30 am I will be there, hopefully dazzling them. I think a weektime 9 - 5 type job like this could be very good for me. No more call centers and weird hours. I think now with the appearance of this possibility coupled with the meeting of the man, well, I think that my life could be headed for a more "normal" route. Which is a great thing. I think I need it. My my my - I think I'm growing up!



My mother will be so proud. Finally at 26 I'm getting a "normal" life.

Secret Admirer

Ever wonder if you have secret admirers? An incident last night made me wonder if you could only know how many people had crushes on you or at least wanted to fuck you, how weird would it be. And how different your life could turn out. There is a certain person who I've been crushing on for ages and last night I was definitely getting the vibe from him (AGAIN) and I swear it wasn't due to intoxicating substances either! I'd kind of love to broach the topic with him as he is a long term "obsession" of mine. (Hey, he has staying power when I usually get sick of people after a week at most!) I'm sure too though there would be a lot of people who I don't really want to know about their interest in me too! LOL... A debate for the ages, to know or not to know...

Monday

This is kind of how I feel today. I hate it when your sleep is not enough or it's not really sleep. LOL!
I tossed and turned more than usual last night so today I feel kind of like ass. But that's alright. I have a lot of things to catch up on - job hunting to be one of them. So since I'm not in the mood to do anything, this might not be such a bad deal. Although I wish my eyes would straighten out. Thank god I can type without looking I guess.

Rejected

A fictional collision between art, commercial culture and madness.

In the spring of 1999, the Family Learning Channel commissioned animator Don Hertzfeldt to produce promotional segments for their network. The cartoons were completed in five weeks. The Family Learning Channel rejected all of them upon review, and they were never aired...

Watch the insanity, the hilarity here!

The Mikvah Project

Mikvah: An ancient ritual bath in which Jewish women traditionally immerse after their monthly cycle and before the resumption of sexual relations. Also used for conversion.

Mikvah has been passed down from mother to daughter as a thoroughly private, even secret ritual. Today it is a many-faceted silent celebration of womanhood observed by a broad spectrum of Jewish women.

This is the man I love. I went through two abusive marriages before I finally found the right guy. I want babies with him. I want clones of this man. My first marriage was an arranged marriage when I was seventeen. Mikvah was something that I accepted in the same way we accepted other rules, even though I may not have liked them or understood why. When I married the second time, mikvah still meant nothing to me. Zero. When I was standing in the mikvah on the night before my third wedding, I started crying. Each time I went down I felt more engulfed by the water, more purified by the water. The immersion that was supposed to be a preparation for getting married became an act of being born. In that short time I made a commitment that this is something I'm going to observe for me. No one is making me do it.

Dance, White Boy, Dance

This is one of the funniest things I've ever seen...

Kick My Dog

Why did you do this?! Why?!



Ha - this one is a classic!!! (Click the picture)

ROFL

LOL - here you go boys; this one's for you. Alrighty, what am I doing at 2 am on Saturday night blogging anyway?! Time for me to make myself beautiful and go out to play! :)

Saturday...

This is how I feel about my Saturday. It couldn't have been more perfect or more enjoyable. It's funny how the simplest things in life can make you the absolute happiest. Just spending time getting to know an amazing person, buying on orange Mat n Nat bag that makes you the envy of your friends & lazing around all day can truly be energizing...

Plus knowing you're going to see some great friends, hear some great music & look killer (THANKS GABRIEL!) can also make the day complete.

But it is of course more because of other parts of the day. ;)

Alcohol...

I've decided that alcohol is TASTY AND NUTRITIOUS. And I would know. I've done enough market research. I could write a thesis!

I've also decided that I am now

This Is The Story of My Name

This is the story of my name: Once upon a time there was a TV show called Charlie's Angels.
Kate Jackson played Sabrina. My actual first name is legally "Sabrina-Kate". My parents said they just liked the show. I dunno, maybe my dad had a weird thing for her???

Today This is Me

Tonight with Miguel Graca and Francois le Baron @ Unity!!!

Acclaimed by renowned dj/producers such as Masters at Work ,Derrick Carter

and Larry "Mr. Fingers" Heard to name a few. Miguel Graça and Trevor Walker

aka Cravo e Canela have exclusively remixed three songs from their debut album

"Free Radical". These MP3 versions we're created for a more dancefloor environment

although they still retain the original deep feel intended for the album.

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For You...

For a glimpse of you; one would follow a blind man's cane. For a touch of you; one would steal the gauntlet of fame. For a scent of you; one would breathe in fire from a devils soul. For a taste of you; one would famish until old.

What Breed of Dog Are You?

I just had to post this one... Clickity click HERE!

And here are MY results:

What Breed of Dog Are You?

Sabrina, you're a Pug!

No bones about it, you're an intelligent, playful Pug. Witty and charming, you're a lot of dog wrapped in a small package. People just love you — a wonderful approachability and sense of humor put you at the top of everyone's list. And because you're smart and quick-witted, you attract a crowd wherever you go. (Have you ever considered running for office or starting a company? You've got the charisma for either.) But that doesn't mean you can't be a little naughty or mischievous when opportunity knocks — you've definitely got a nose for fun! A happy, optimistic breed, you're admired and respected by all. Woof!

Symptoms of You - Playford and Grey

This song just RULES. It's on my top three at the moment for sure. THANKS ROGER SANCHEZ for introducing me to it!!!

With lines like, "The side affects of love are the symptoms of you" how HOT is that?!

"My temperature is rising with the fever you're giving me, save me from myself, nurse me back to health, I think I'm coming down with something, like a virus of love."

Check out s sample here!

Doors....

Today I was so reminded that one door closing is just there to give the chance for another door to open. I've had a very good day, all things considered. I spent a great afternoon and evening with someone. I feel truly blessed to have the friends I do and to be living the life I lead. Funny how someone can make you realize that without even necessarily trying to.

I'm a Quitter - And PROUD of It!

I think that the next few weeks, if not months are going to be quite tumultuous but in the end, energizing and positive times for me. I've started cleaning out things and people out of my life that I have found less than positive or that I have found unnecessarily negative.

I've been getting a lot of negativity and outright nastiness from people since I've started doing that. But I could care less. I'm doing it for me, not because I want to be popular.

Hatred is gained as much by good works as by evil.
Niccolo Machiavelli



And this is for those AFTERCHAT people who have been such two-faced back stabbing assholes:

To be loved is to be fortunate, but to be hated is to achieve distinction.
Minna Antrim

It is human nature to hate the man whom you have hurt.
Tacitus


Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illumines it.
Martin Luther King, Jr.

Mr. Roboto...

For some reason this just reminds me of some people and their monotony. Either way, it's good for a laugh; Lex and I have laughed about it quite a few times.

A Hunting We Will Go...

So Day One of THE NEW JOB SEARCH starts... I wake up at 11ish in the morning, which isn't bad, considering I was up til almost 7 am and I feel pretty good. I honestly think that the job was killing me. I feel much better today than I have in a long time. Wow. To think that a job that I felt like was killing my soul actually might have been.

I've updated my resume already yesterday. And already sent it out to other places. I'm ahead of the game. After I have some lunch and do some laundry, I think I will be heading off to the employment office. I hope these bloody bastards at my former place of employment send me my paperwork so I can sucessfully apply for UI. Then I too can sit on my ass and live the good life.

BUT I'm still going to be looking for a job. I just don't want to settle for something that will make me feel ill again. GOODBYE FAT STUPID CUNT OF A SUPERVISOR! GOODBYE TO THE PEAR WHOSE DIAPER NEEDED CHANGING. GOODBYE TO ALL YOU STUPID ASSHOLES WHO CALLED IN AND ANNOYED ME...

I think life is so much better now that I feel like I have choice!



I really do think my smile is THIS big today!

F-Ram.Net - Cartoonish Extraordinaire!

I don't know him very well, but I met him a few months ago and his site showcases his AMAZING talent... You really should check it out!!!

This is a cartoon he made for me on his Exploding Membrane section of his site.



"Companion of the Soul"

Sex Workers Interviews...

Here is an interesting read, interviews with various types of sex workers...

My New Full-Time Job

Donkeys are the New Sheep Apparently...

Donkey Blow Up Doll: Shake a little ass!!

What It Does: Throw out your old Blow Up Sheep, and upgrade to Desperado the donkey! Get prepared for the wildest donkey ride ever! It's time to feed your donkey some meat.

Pleasure Points: Perfect item for your next adult party! Desperado the Donkey comes complete with a Real Sound speaker. Includes 3 - LR44 cell batteries.

Just what is it supposed to sound like though? This is kind of disturbing...

Life is Beautiful Huh?

Well this week is turning out lovely. I'm honestly terrified I may have something seriously wrong with me and am going to the doctor to find out more. Let's just say it could be the big C. It's common in my family, so let's just say I'm scared with reason.



Then I go to work and get fired. Lovely.



Back to the drawing board. At least I honestly don't feel that bad as I HATED the job.

ZzZZzzzzzZZzzZZZzZzZzZzz's

Just wanted to be lazy today and lie in bed and doze the morning away, so I did. I forgot how good it felt.

Then I fell asleep for real and dreamt multiple times about having sex with Carmine, Roger Sanchez's manager. LOL... I had no idea that was in my psyche somewhere!

HOT!

Ok, apparently she is a SHITE DJ, but how hot is Portia Surreal's outfit here?! My friend DJ'ed with her on the weekend and sent me this pic. I WANT TO WEAR THAT EVERYWHERE, EVERY DAY, ALL THE TIME!

Ouch...

I have a headache that just won't go away... No matter what I do. I got it from going for a walk outside as I thought it would be healthy. I guess I should just keep getting drunk and crunk as then if I'm in any sort of pain, I just don't notice it. Ignorance (os substance abuse) truly is bliss.... Substance abuse for a brighter future I say!

And here is proof that that state of mind is a happy place indeed:



Ahhh the memories....

This was at the first of Patrick Legendre's Underground Legacy parties. The next one will take place on March 5th and will be featuring Angel Moraes, Serge Duchesne and my friend, B'Ugo!!! Yay for B'Ugo - I definitely can't wait for that! (And thanks to Patrick for giving po' ass little old me a ticket already!) By the way, the next party is called "House Factory".

So I've decided that relationships of any sort are complete bullocks. (Once again.) Not really anyone I know seems to a) be in one or b) if they are, they're not happy. I'm sick of meeting guys who lead me on, or use me up. Is it too much to ask to be appreciated or at the very least some honesty?! I guess I'm really referring to a specific event of the weekend.

So let me fill you all in: I went to the club for one of my favorite DJ's, Roger Sanchez. Was looking forward to the night, especially since lately I've been staying at home a lot and miss being out. So this guy who I have recently met started hanging out with me and following me around the club. Then he started holding my hand, then he started massaging me, then he started holding me close...

At one point, he was talking to a friend of mine and I felt like dancing, so I went to dance and said I'd be back. I went back and not long after... And they were both gone. Apparently my friend "drove him home." I was blocked by amy gay friend. I'm so upset. Yay for friends who steal your man and yay for men who are just teases. I honestly don't know how I'm going to react when I see him again, but I'm really not happy at the moment.

End up at Parking to end off the weekend, and Patrick Dream ends up trying to chain me to him at the end of the night... Not a good think to do to a crunk and drunk girl ;) Well it is when you're up for what you're asking for...



So now I'm alone and tired and bored. I need a change of scenery I think.

Lunch Box

THE ABSOLUTE BEST PURCHASE OF THIS WEEK!

I soooo love this and am going to love it forever!!!



Check out Hard Candy!

C is also for Crack...

Yes it DOES, just ask us at work. We've been on a two day Crizack fest, talking about how Alex is a "very good crackhead" (You MUST say this with an Apu like accent!) and how we need to order crack and hookers, a BIG bowl of crack!!! I wonder if the other people who work with me and Alex2 think we're insane. (They're probably right)

Below is a picture of me at work:

C is for Cookie...

Once again, cookies are an important element in my life. You know that you have found a great guy when he brings you cookies. That is all I can say. Comes to meet you at work and brings you cookies, so you can have cookie therapy and went scouting around your office to find some at 10 pm... I see great things in the future!

Relationship Quiz

Here you are... Sorry I am making just lame links for the moment, but I've been kind of busy this week and wanted to put something up...

Virtual Bimbo

Or bartender, apparently anyway...

Music Videos for you Boys

Here is:

Numero Uno

Number Two

Number Three

Number Four

Double Entendre...

LOL - um, am I the ONLY person who thinks this is at least SLIGHTLY perverted!?

I Feel Like Ass

You know, having anemia isn't the easiest thing in the world... Most of the time I just feel more tired than usual. (And yes I'm trying to take better care of myself so my situation improves...) But sometimes I just feel like COMPLETE ass. Like this morning. I feel like a truck ran over me and my body aches all over...

I NEED A MASSAGE!

But I think I'll settle for going to work and drinking copious amounts of coke to keep myself awake. And to trick myself into thinking I'm awake. Ahhhh, coke, sweet elixir of life, giver of life and everything that is good!

Love of My Life...

Once again I have found myself falling in love with another man that I can't really have. But I still do have his love and he's incredible. I love how life presents to you small gifts like moments shared with a soul mate.

Elvis and Gabriel came up from NYC on the weekend to see Victor Calderone play at Stereo. I remember seeing them all night and thinking, THEY ARE FABULOUS! They are beautiful gorgeous latino boys who have hearts of gold. I can't wait to see them again...

And In Honor of Valentine's Day....

Here is ORGASM GIRL... Enjoy!

Happy VD

Life is hard children. That is my lesson of today. But there will be people you meet along the way who will be your soul mates. Who make you feel truly blessed to be alive. Truly blessed to have known them even if only for a moment. I had one of those ephiphanies this weekend where I realized that I truly do have love in my life, just not from the usual sources. I wouldn't trade the people I love me for anything because I know their love is true and pure.

I LOVE YOU ALL.

YUM.....

Candy Hearts...

I love this site. :) And I love the heart my grrl Vic made for me. So appropriate, so apt, so ME!

What Not to Do on Your First Date.... Apparently!

Some of these are too much!!!




1 - Don't drool over him/her.



2 - Don't stare off into space, make conversation.



3 - Talk about anything BUT the weather.



4 - Laugh at your dates jokes, no matter how not funny it is.



5 - Don't expect it to be a high class date with pricey restaurants and bouquets of flowers.



6 - Don't believe everything your date tells you.



7 - Don't overdo the hard to get act.



8 - Don't plan for a second date before the first one is over.



9 - Don't get drunk. It spoils both your mood.



10 - Don't press your luck for a kiss. There might not even be a second date then!